GROWIN & CHANGES

So, I was looking at the calendar & just realized that its only two more months left in the year. Wow, time flies by really fast. I'm getting older, & my son is getting older, also all my friends plus my parents.

I remember like it was yesterday that this little bad ass monster of mines was just born. Now he's 3 going on 4 upcoming MARCH of next year. No, I haven't been the best mother but I've been a hell of a mother to this little boy. He's the one who keeps me ALIVE, I can't be selfish. I wasn't use to having to take care of another person but myself. Times has been hard, he knows that his mommy is trying to give him a life better than hers. Going towards people; no one has the right to judge someone on their parenting skills unless the person is extremely fucked up. NEGLECTING THEM 100%. If you wanna judge on how I am being a parent, do me a favor, shut the fuck up & jump off a bridge. I know what I'm doing. Thanks.

My parents - Omg parents will parents. They nag like non-stop & we go on to saying how much we hate them & so on. I say it all the time, but they gave me my life & they can take it away [ what my mom says ]. C'mon, who's the ones who provided us with shelter, making sure we're going to school to get a good education, spoilin us & providing us with everything else. ITS THEM. It sucks cause in life, you have to grow old, & you can't reduce your age. It saddens me everyday knowing that my parents are getting old. I want them to be here with me forever, I can't imagine the day when god decides to take them away. I regret that I couldn't be a perfect child but no one is perfect. Just as long I accomplished at least one thing that I know that made them proud. I love my parents to death & you should appreciate yours. BUT those who has parents that are drug addicts & all that shit, then you're allowed to say fuck em' BUT for those who has everything in the world given by your parents, then YOU DO have to appreciate them.

I'm working on growing to be a responsible young adult & not a little girl. Since I'm 19 now & my last year being a teenager, hell yeah I'm going to enjoy it; having to be a grown person also. I've been through lots, but I'm sure there's people who've been through even more fucked up things than me. I've grown to learn, but still having trouble to understand the meaning of things. Sometimes when I speak, I do not hear what the hell I be saying. My boyfriend says that, because I don't make sense & when I'm wrong, I always try to be right. Lol. Yeah, I know. Life, is all about learning right ? learning from your mistakes & everything.

" Whatever don't kills you only makes you stronger "

love jayy.