FOREVERR

"without a wrinkle in today
cuz there is no tomorrow
just some picture perfect day
to last a whole lifetime
and it never ends
cause all we have to do is hit rewind
so lets just stay in the moment, smoke some weed,
drink some wine,
reminisce talk some shit forever young is in your mind
leave a mark that can never erase neither space nor time"

love jayy.

HALLOWEEN

I would probably be this for halloween this year.

" Mushroom Alice In Wonderland "

A tad bit slutty? lol kinda haha. I didn't even get to buy it yet, maybe sometime this weekend. Need to pick out a costume for my son too.

love jayy.

WTF?

I was looking at one of my facebook friends profile & she found this. so WTF IS THIS? would you guys even wear this ? Lol. It looks like crab claws or something. Horrible & ugly looking. For some reason its going to be in the 2010 spring collection. It shouldn't be.

THIS IS A FASHION MISTAKE/ERROR.

love jayy.

GROWIN & CHANGES

So, I was looking at the calendar & just realized that its only two more months left in the year. Wow, time flies by really fast. I'm getting older, & my son is getting older, also all my friends plus my parents.

I remember like it was yesterday that this little bad ass monster of mines was just born. Now he's 3 going on 4 upcoming MARCH of next year. No, I haven't been the best mother but I've been a hell of a mother to this little boy. He's the one who keeps me ALIVE, I can't be selfish. I wasn't use to having to take care of another person but myself. Times has been hard, he knows that his mommy is trying to give him a life better than hers. Going towards people; no one has the right to judge someone on their parenting skills unless the person is extremely fucked up. NEGLECTING THEM 100%. If you wanna judge on how I am being a parent, do me a favor, shut the fuck up & jump off a bridge. I know what I'm doing. Thanks.

My parents - Omg parents will parents. They nag like non-stop & we go on to saying how much we hate them & so on. I say it all the time, but they gave me my life & they can take it away [ what my mom says ]. C'mon, who's the ones who provided us with shelter, making sure we're going to school to get a good education, spoilin us & providing us with everything else. ITS THEM. It sucks cause in life, you have to grow old, & you can't reduce your age. It saddens me everyday knowing that my parents are getting old. I want them to be here with me forever, I can't imagine the day when god decides to take them away. I regret that I couldn't be a perfect child but no one is perfect. Just as long I accomplished at least one thing that I know that made them proud. I love my parents to death & you should appreciate yours. BUT those who has parents that are drug addicts & all that shit, then you're allowed to say fuck em' BUT for those who has everything in the world given by your parents, then YOU DO have to appreciate them.

I'm working on growing to be a responsible young adult & not a little girl. Since I'm 19 now & my last year being a teenager, hell yeah I'm going to enjoy it; having to be a grown person also. I've been through lots, but I'm sure there's people who've been through even more fucked up things than me. I've grown to learn, but still having trouble to understand the meaning of things. Sometimes when I speak, I do not hear what the hell I be saying. My boyfriend says that, because I don't make sense & when I'm wrong, I always try to be right. Lol. Yeah, I know. Life, is all about learning right ? learning from your mistakes & everything.

" Whatever don't kills you only makes you stronger "

love jayy.

THERE'S NO SUCH THING AS REAL ANYMORE

I haven't updated for awhile, so here's one for ya.

Today is my Daddy's 50th birthday! If he makes it to live a 100years old, thats exactly half of his life today. I hope he lives a long and HAPPY life, everyone deserves to be happy. I called him all the way in VN to wish him a happy birthday. I'm such a thoughtful and loving daughter, yes I am. =] Which one of his other kids put aside time out of their own selfish lives to do that, hmm i wonder...


Anywhos after these last couple of days, I've realized that:
A. I really can't trust anyone, and
B. Who isn't two-faced or fake? EVERYONE is. Point blank.
I just saw this the other day and it's the Mf'ing truth!

"Quit telling people your secrets when you know they are not going to keep them! And if you keep telling them, then quit getting mad when they tell your secrets!" <--- same goes for doing shit for people.

"Quit trying to change people! IT DOESN'T WORK! Quit cussing people out when you know that they are just being the miserable and jealous people that they are!" <--- same goes for talking shit or trying to beat them up (waste of time)

I hear and see this allllllll the damnnnn time
"People got nothing better to do than talk shit or run their mouths"
STFU CAUSE YOU TALKED, TALK, AND
PROBABLY STILL ARE TALKING SHIT!
WHO DOESN'T TALK SHIT? EVERYONE TALKS SHITTTTT STFU AND SUCK A DICK ALREADY. DUMB ASSES!

I seriously don't expect my girls to choose my side over someone else that I have problems or disagreements with. BUT, if this other person has fucked you over or done something to show that they are
A. not as good of a person as you thought they were or
B. trustworthy, then that should be enough for you to make up your mind about them. This goes back to my "Real Talk" blog.
"Remember when you used to talk shit about a person before you started kissing their ass" Yes, that. Same goes for family,
"BLOOD IS NOT ALWAYS THICKER THAN WATER"
I know from experience. Some people would just shit in your face to get wtf they want. I'm not even gonna lie, I used to talk mad shit bout girls and be all "hey" or what not to their faces. I probably still do it til this day. So down to the point,
"THERE'S NO SUCH THING AS REAL ANYMORE,
EVERYONES FAKE EVERYONES TWOFACED!"
Now, it's all about who got enough balls to say what to who.

Everyone's all, "omg that girl is so two-faced, omg, that girl is soo fake" Alright, it's 2009 we know everyone's fake and two-faced. Now, we're moving onto 2010. Girl better have some BALLS, if not she'd just be stuck with the title of being a pussy ass bitch. Okay moving on..


In some cases though, you really CAN'T hate someone forever. I tried, it didn't happen. You ever watch them stupid movies that are so stupid, it's funny? Yeah well this is like the same case scenario. So what can you do cause then you'd be stuck with the whole "she's fake, she's two-faced" title. okay whatever, I'll admit to any goddamn bitch that i talked shit about her. I seriously dislike girls who talk shit about people and claim to be those "non-fighters" or "peacemakers" or "ima lover, not a fighter" people. STFU if you gonna talk shit about someone, you better be damn fucking ready to back that mouth up or else it's just gonna get busted.

REALTALK.

Okay so i really did have some cases where i talked shit about someone, they talked shit about me. Then in some miracle work of god, we just became "alright" or "cool" again. Its cool I guess, I ain't gonna be all fake and say I didn't talk shit about you. Cause best bets are, if you talked shit about me, I most likely, most certainly had my fair shares of say about you too boo. Some people are just that mature enough to not have to go to the whole "whattt bitch you said what about me? oh fuck you, nah we ain't cool" Nah, you talked shit about me, i talked shit about you. We're over that? Okay... moving forward.

Okay am I babbling too much? Nough said. Tune in for my next blog cause I know you love reading my REALTALK =D have a good night.

UMMM ..

So yesterday was my 19th Birthday. Woot Woot. Plus 1 Year Anni. I'm pretty sad because the day went by so fast. I hardly did much though, just went out to eat with my boyfriend. THIS WEEKEND though, I'll be partyin my butt off. 19 already, last year to be a teenager. & I'll hit the big 2-0 next October. So many people said happy birthday to me, I lost count. Thanks guys, I appreciate it.

I've been missin my gossip girls episodes, sucks. Tonight 90210 will be on. I love watchin it. Oo0o yeahs, 2nd episode of the hills tonight too!

In this season 2 of 90210. Adrianna, is so god damn pretty. She looks way better with long hair. & her eyes are gorgeous as ever.

love jayy.

OCTOBER

The second day of October already. That was so quick & the weather is gettin cold here over in the east coast or where I am at which is Philadelphia. I hate it. I need to go winter shopping. I need a new pea coat, some uggs, boots & son on.

Its officially 3 more days until my birthday

+ one year anniversary.

Halloween is coming up in the end of the month. I'm still debating on what I should be. I went to the costumes stores early this week, I didn't see any cute ones or interesting & I went to two of them. Gotta figure out what my son is going to be too. It'll definetly be cold for sure that day, so make sure to put on another layer of clothese under your kids costumes, parents ! Lol.

I want to go to dorney park or six flags for their october fest. Didn't even get the chance to go during the freakin summer. & that's bullshit. So I'll drag my boyfriend & friends to go. Anyways, I will come back next week & blog about make-up, fall season fashion or some other stuff. Toodles.

love jayy.

MYTOUCH

Okays nothing really changed since the last time I've really blogged. Its officially 4 more days until my birthdayyyy. AHH I am super stoked. I'll be only 19 though. Its a good number or age I guess .. even more exciting it will also be MY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY with my BOYFRIEND =D .. Anyways ..

My boyfriend had got me the new t-mobile's MYTOUCH for my birthday =] He's the best. He gave it to me early, like 2 days ago. No more of that SIDEKICK LIFE, gotta switch it up. At first, I was excited to use the phone, then later for some reason it started to pissed me off cause none of the apps or anything was working; even the internet. I thought that since I've got unlimited everything on my sidekick, it would work on the mytouch; but it didnt. So I've changed my sidekick plan to the mytouch. Overall, the mytouch is a good phone though, when you have the internet and stuff up and running. Its also a decent phone & ILOVEIT.

I got the one in black.

love jayy.