I Remember When

I remember the first year of me and babes' relationship. We went through a LOT of ups and downs. I can honestly say the main problem was his ex's. These girls just didn't know how to hopp off and stay off. No, i don't believe in being friends with someone you once had an emotional or sexual relationship with. He did alot of wrong and i used to ask myself why i still stayed through all the heartbreak. People used to call me stupid, but i said i was stuck on stupid love. Then one day that summer as i sat in his room all alone while he left me home as always, i just got fed up. I walked back and fourth to the train station at some 3-4am in Camden. Then i walked back to his house, told myself if he came home in a half hour i'd give it one more try. He'd been out since 1am and came home 7am and went straight to sleep, not even realizing i had cutt myself. Yes, i know i was stupid back then.. [crazy thing was my blood stains were still on his pillow 4months later!] The next day i just left, called quits and told myself i deserve better. If he really loved me he'd chase after me but he didnt..

Until 3months later when he realized the girl that he screwed me over for wasn't all she was cracked up to be. He came back, when i had set my life straight. My problem was never letting go of the past and heartaches. I always brought up problems, which made us argue, which pushed him away. We was always arguing about a girl, this girl that girl. He just has issues of telling a bitch to fuck off! I, however have no problem cursing a bitch out and telling her to fuck off my man.

Anywhos it took him a LONG while to finally just grow the hell up. He still has problems letting go of his fiends. I felt like a mother long before i became one. Well i finally was able to let go of the past, and we are as happy as ever. Well ever since i came back from Florida that is. I guess it took me leaving and writing some bullshit April Fools joke about me getting married and some dumb retard believing it and running back and telling him for him to realize he better act right or i'm gone with his son forever.

We have a mutual understanding now, NO BITCHES, PERIOD! If we see one of our ex's [emotional or sexual] we DON'T acknowledge their presence, let alone say hi or talk. OR ELSE. Isn't that right babe? LOL



Man we used to take soo many pictures, well I took pictures. He didn't care much then. Thank god i deleted all his pictures with him and any other tricks from his past. There's only room for one girl in this guy's life and that's MEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEME. Baby knows i do it better than any trick he ever had, i'm WIFEY. Yes, I got that ring on my finger.

Keyshia Kole's I remember brings back sooo many bad memories from 2007. I'm glad I'm finally strong enough to let go of the past and pain, and be able to build a happy forever with him. We have a beautiful one year old that looks just like him. What guy wouldn't want a son who looks just like him? LOL.

Moral of the story: If you're hurting too much, it's time to let go. If it's meant to be, they'll come back. Holding grudges just tears you more apart. Good healthy relationships are built on trust and happiness.

So yeah, I know I was stupid, I know he was fucked up. But I did my fair share of dirty too as he says. So Ladies, next time you wanna talk shit about another girls' relationship, remember how you once were stupid yourself. Because unfortunately, all girls have one time or another been treated like shit by a guy because guys are assholes! And they never appreciate what they have until they're close to losing it.

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P.S. I love getting together with my Twin, we have some fun, crazy ass talks. We don't call each other BFF's because they're so over-rated. Chicks now a days call every girl they chill with their BFF until one goes their seperate way then they find a new one.

POMERANIANS

omg, they're are too adorable !! & i want one. i've been making baby faces at my boyfriend, so he has said that he'll get me one for my 19th birthday in october =] i hope he does. i want one that looks like this with white fur as well. the gender doesn't matter to me.

love jayy.

REAL TALK

I was talking about this type of shit with one of my girls today...

And this is generally speaking.. Remember before you met your now called "friends", "bffs", "associates" whatever and such.. Remember how you used to talk shit about them when you first met them like; "damn that bitch look ugly, weird, skinny, fat etc.." You was basically sizing them up, grilling them, staring when they wasn't looking.. then talking shit behind their back.

Then remember when somehow ya'll became friends.. got closer, Chilled with each other through other people then added each other on myspace, facebook, and aim. Then you used to comment them like "hey girl, boo, hun, sweetie, gorgeous, sexy etc..." "you so pretty, cute, hot, gorgeous etc etc..., let's chill, hang, etc.." Then behind their back you talking shit like: "she looks weird in person, she look ugly." yada yadaaa yadaaaa... Yeah well it was all FAKE!

I call those the ASS LICKING BITCHES.. You know, the type that be kissing ass.. talking shit bout someone then run and lick their ass when they need a friend or someone to talk to.. Yeah, that's you. Some people are still buddy buddy with that person they was kissing ass to, cause the other person doesn't know the trash one talked about them.. Others caught on and dropped them fake ass two-facing bitches.


*STOP WORRYING ABOUT ME, MY DUDE, & MY FUCKING CUTE ASS SON. You riding our dicks hard as shit and bitch, we ain't do shit to you. Threatened for nothing... If i wanted to do something trust me hunnie, i would've been had you. You one of them trick ass hoe's that be at every club event for FREE cause you be sucking some DICK dancing on every nigga to get free drinks. DEFINITION:TRICKN'! BAMMM, bitch you ain't got shit on me.

THIS IS DIRECTED TOWARDS EVERYONE:
If you gonna talk shit boutta bitch, say it to her.. don't just talk your side shit and hide behind people when you see her.


Anywho's ... Babe is off for the next two days, yesssss BEACH TIME!!! I can't wait til September!
And it was my brother's birthday yesterday. Too bad he's away but he'll be back in September he's 26. And BiL's birthday is tomorrow. He's at the strip club lol LOSER happy early birthday

MAC - LOVE THAT LOOK COLLECTION

This is MAC's "Cosmetic Love That Look" Official Collection

for FALL 2009

Eye Shadows: (All LE, all Starflash formula) $14.00USD

Grand Entrance - Cool apricot beige (Repromote from Starflash)
Dreamaker - Frosty yellow gold (Repromote from Starflash)
Smoke & Diamonds - Frosty dirty gray taupe (Repromote from Starflash)
Glamour Check! - Reddish brown (Repromote from Starflash)
Strike A Pose - Dirty deep sea blue
Ego - Light yellow pink
Fashion Groupie - Light, blue violet
Unbasic White - Snow white
One-Off - Medium green with silver pearl
Rated R - Light, yellow green
Style Snob - Dirty pink brown with gold pearl
Fashion Light - Gray-green with gold pearl

this is my favorite - smoke & diamonds

only because i love making my eyes smokey & use it constantly

Pearlglide Liners: (All LE) $14.50USD

Fly By Blu - Light blue with blue glitter (Repromote from Suite Array)
Molasses - Brown with mid-tone brown glitter (Repromote from Suite Array)
Rave - Deep purple with purple glitter (Repromote from Suite Array)
Black Russian - Black with navy blue glitter (Repromote from Suite Array)

love jayy.

MILEY CYRUS

Miley on this month's cover for ELLE Magazine

August 2009 issue

& some photos from her photoshoot

she's grown so much & i simply adore her.

her interview on why she's not a kid anymore :

On the value of style: “I would pay $500 for the jeans that we make for $20. I’m really into high fashion.”
On natural beauty: “I like these crooked. I love my teeth. My dad won’t let me fix my teeth or cut my hair. He loves it. He’s like, ‘It’s you!’”

On Justin Gaston, her boyfriend at the time of the interview: “We’re together, and then again, we’re not. Some people see us more as friends and don’t get why we work in a relationship. They’re like, ‘It’s weird, best friends shouldn’t date!’ But the person that you eventually spend the rest of your life with – I’m not saying it’s him – why are you going to wake up with someone every day and not want to hang out with them?”
About the glamorous life: “The most fun thing about prom is having that one special night when you dress up and you feel like a princess, and honestly, I get to do that one night a lot.”

On her new clothing line with Max Azria for Wal-Mart:“The jeans are my favorite part of the entire line. Because, like, literally this is going to be good for, like, Middle America, and it will be great for kids that really want to be in fashion but that don’t have it available.”

On the difficulties of being a teen star and why she’s friends with other young performers: “It’s hard for all of us. There are so many people that could be using you. So me and Nick and Demi, we don’t need anything from each other. We got our own thing going on.”

love jayy.

RE-TOUCHED

okays, edit to my " AUDI " post;

known as : an AUDI S5 also

better pictures i've found of it.

its a beauty .. oooh yea.

love jayy.

RANDOM

" I believe everything happens for a reason. People change so you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so that you will eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes, good things fall apart, so better things can fall together "

- marilyn monroe

love jayy.

"If you trickn', then i'm treatn'."

So Me, Babe, the baby and BiL went to Friday's earlier in the day and ate together before babe and BiL hadda go to work.. BTW, Friday's Cajun Chicken and Shrimp Pasta is DELICIOUS!! On the way home, I don't know how it came up but BiL was telling us how the other day him and his boy was eatting at his Uncle's Pho job. Then some jawns came strolling in and sat down in the table right next to them and his boy was like.."wtf.."
Then the one jawn looked over at BiL and was like "you treatn' right?"
Then BiL goes, "wtf, treatn' what?"
Then she goes, "treatn' us."
Then he goes, "Yeah i'll treat. If you trickn', then i'm treatn'."
And she goes, "huh?"
BiL says, "If you TRICKN', i'm TREATN'."
And she says, "I don't understand what you're saying. I don't understand your "slang"."

I'm sitting here cracking the fuck up in the backseat like WTF... First off you and your homegirls be listening to rap with SLANG in it all the time. Ya'll be shaking your skank asses at the club 24/7 to RAP WITH SLANG and you mean to tell me you don't understand what he means when he says "if you trickn' then i'm treatn'." Surely honey, he wasn't talking about halloween cause obviously everyone and they moms knows that you and your HOES be TRICKN!. SMH... Second off, you gonna sit there and try to get his brother "jumped" then ask him to "treat" you and your girls? LOL

Matter of fact, people like that should go to urbandictionary.com and look up those slang terms that ya'll don't "understand". LOL SMH..
For all the other people who don't know what "trick" is:
tRicK'(n.) A broad term for describing women who are either teases, hoes, or one of the above pretending to be the other. Calling a woman a trick shows you are not impressed/convinced by their shit.

Term directed more toward females most commonly used for women who play with your head in the sense of acting like they want you one day and hardly noticing you the next or in simpler terms a woman who will suck you up but will fuck you up later on

"Man I don't need her, that bitch was nothin' but a trick"
BASICALLY, A TRICK IS A STRAIGHT-UP HOE!


Then I'm sitting here going through facebook and seeing people talking shit about other people ONLINE but when they seen that person IN PERSON they didn't say shit to em', instead you looking away, walking the fuck away!. WTF is wrong with these bitches thinking they some tough, bad bitches when really, they ain't.

Then BiL asked me what am i cause we was talking about Philly & Jersey ppls. Then i said, I'm a philajersey girl, PANJ. I'm FROM Philly, it's my hometown, i go back about 3-4times a week cause my mom and dad is still there.. But, I RESIDE in JERSEY. No, I ain't no wanna-be Jersey chick, get it right. I LIVE IN JERSEY SO STFU FOR THOSE WHO LIKE TO TALK SHIT.

Onto some other shit.. DAMN Weening a teething baby is some hard shit. Jayden is just a whiney baby when he teethes period, but take away his bottle omg, it's so unbearable.! My poor baby, but he's gotta learn. I don't want my kid growing up with some fawked up ass teeth. I love how he gets when he's teething though, he gets whiney and clingy i can't do anything but i love how he holds onto me and doesn't let go even when he's sleeping. ;]

A CHANGE & MISS LOVATO.

hell0o0 my blog readers lol. anyways, i haven't been on here since what ? last week ? so guess what guys ? i am no longer a red head, i am now a black head. i miss my red hair already though. some people like my black hair, they also said i look evil. yes thank you; i love lookin & feelin evil. & some likes my red hair better, but don't worry guys! the red headed bitch is coming back around OCTOBER FOR HER 19TH lol. yay =]

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DEMI LOVATO

i love this girl, she's gotten so gorgeous & enjoy her music. i'll admit i did not like at first when she played in that disney channel show. something that starts with the bell rings or whatever its called, idk lol. i really heard her voice when she did " camp rock ", & i realized that this girl has got a talent. she's such a beautiful girl & i love her.

i love this song & go buy her album to support her sales; dl or whatever.

lovee jayy.

AIN'T SHIT

THERE AIN'T SHIT HERE

FOR YOU TO CHECK UP ON.

KEEP IT FUCKIN MOVIN.

lovee fuckin' jayy.

AN AUDI

Lmao, GF, hell yeahs i remeber that old school shit haha. I remember they had like this game that involves shooting ducks or something. It has like gun controllers or whatever that comes with that duck game, BUT that was my favorite.

ANYWAYS, I am in Wildwood, NJ right now chillen with my cousins in our beach house. I forgot to bring my camera, so yeahs. Sucks with no pictures to remember.

Okays, this was the main thing that i wanted to get into. Awhile ago, my boyfriend had this car picture as his background desktop in his laptop. He say's its his dream car. BOY ! This car is fine as hell. Soon I learned more about it, its my dream car too. Most of all I just like how sexy it looks.

This photo isn't like the one that my BF has. The one he has looks way better than this one, i just couldn't find it. Okays, this is a 2009 AUDI A5 COUPE. One day, i would love to get my hands on one as my own.

BUT FOR NOW ..

I settle for this. This isn't my own picture as you can see, but this is what im whippin these days. Its the same exact color, dark greyish & same tinted windows that's custom made from their factory. This is a NISSAN ALITIMA SE R SPORTS CAR. The fastest altima out of all the regular altimas =]

lovee jayy.

That 'back in the day' shit

I know ya'll heard of Super Nintendo (SNES), that was that back in the day shit. We'll I just bought myself the old system like last week + Super Mario World (technically, the BF bought it, haha.) I think it's way better than the modern day game systems. I, personally don't play much of games but when it comes to Mario, I'm first on the controllers! (til i die continuously then I throw the control and tell babe i quit, beat that level for me. LOL Well we beat the whole game in less than two days. Now we're bored and waiting for Super Mario World 2-Yoshi's Island to come in. It's actually quite a family bonding game, my B.I.L will come home from work and think he's the ish cause that's how he is and me him and babe will sit there competing with each other to see who can beat the next level first til like 4am.! It just reminds me how conceited and cocky guys can be, talking shit while they're playing. It's actually quite amusing.

Anywhos, Me and the baby are off to Clementon Park today with my baby cousin and Aunt. This Summer didn't turn out so adventurous, I only made two trips to the beach thus far and non to any amusement park. I need to get out... Since Jayden is officially 1years old, it's time for me to get back on my feet.

POOF VAMOOSE

" He who does not feel me is not real to me, therefore he does not exist. So poof vamoose , son of a bitch "

- jay-z

i always loved that quote

lovee jayy.

Something to look forward to

Why do I feel like I'm missing something in my life right now...

My brother finally gets to come home in less than a month from being away in what feels like forever, although it was only 10months. It's crazy how much things change within a year...

Time for me to get back on my feet and get a babysitter for Jay. Sitting home for a whole year feels like I'm not doing anything for myself or for him, even though I loved watching him grow and learn new things. I wish I could make money sitting at home, but I've gotta get a head start on his college savings. I wish my parents had made a savings account for me to go to college.

I need a drink, or two.. unfortunately I only go out and drink once a blue moon. Luckily, my birthday's just right around the corner.! Summer's almost over and it really sucked this year. Hopefully I'll get to squeeze in a trip to the beach and Six Flags for my birthday weekend.

RELATIONSHIPS

Mm kays, relationships, they're a pain in the ass from what I learned. Not just one person, its both. Both make it work or just not to work with it at all. Its complicated, LOVE IS COMPLICATED. "No it can't always be kisses, hugs, & beautiful words " I understand that.

I've learned not smother each other so much, it makes the relationship go down the drain. There's no such thing as forever, but then again, there can be. That's if you believe it'll work out & stick with each other throughout so many years, then there is a such thing call forever.

Break Up To make Up'. Don't people find that annoying though ? Constantly breaking up, then getting back together ? That annoy me so bad. There's no point of being with each other if that happens all the time. Again, I know how it feels, can't help the way you feel.

If things aren't running smoothly anymore, maybe its time to let go, right ? You don't have to force yourself to continue to stay together. Sometimes letting go is a good thing, you learn from it. Learn how to be independent, don't need a spouse to make you happy & hold you back. As well if that person treats you bad, FUCK EM'. Karma will come around, & let the bitch do her job.

I've learned so much from this one relationship that I am in right now. Everyone only know & see our happy side .. & will never know our times when things are so messed up; well some did. Still we're good, because I believe we're strong enough. There's a point where I done fucked up & need to change my ways, he also needs to too, hah ! He has made me realize alot, but we still need to work on a couple of things. We both learn[ed] from each other; mistakes & to guide one another. Nothing & nobody is perfect.

p.s - sometimes, some people don't deserve you or even each other.

THE EX'S

britney spears & justin timberlake

jessica simpson & nick lachey
CURRENT COUPLES


vanessa hudgens & zac efron


jay-z & beyonce'

lovee jayy.

FAVORITES

yesterday night, i've gotten the chance to go see GI JOE. it was pretty awesome. lots of action going on & i loved every moment of it. im sure they'll have part two to come, because the story hasn't end yet. woot woot, can't wait. & OMG, CHANNING TATUM is the most sexiest thing ever. i've always thought he was sexy ever sinced i've watched him in " coach carter " ;]

FACTS :

age : 29

height : 5'11"

eye color : green

occupation : model / actor

lovee jayy.

SO I'VE HEARD

so its the last month of summer, & fall begins somewhere in september. my summer this year sucked ass real bad. i didn't get to do much. i really wanna hit the beach one more time & as well have a chance to go to six flags. so hopefully i'll get to go.

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SHUT THE FUCK UP, PLEASE

so, i was looking at something & yo idk who " fiona " is talking about. its funny to me though, the chick is funny. but enough about talking shit about people online or even writing about in my blog. my boyfriend says, " don't play a role in these childish games ", but people need to mind their own damn business. so shut the fuck up, bitch. it goes to you, you, you, you, you & yes you! lmao.

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my old - new girlz lol

i need to catch up with some of you guys, big time. i've missed you[s] too. we need to go out to eat, drink, hangout, whatevers. from bigasshead jennifer [lol], my girlfriends' trinh & lisa baby. jojo[f]baby. mary, i miss you too. though i see you most of the time lol, but we haven't went out together, cause i've been with the stanky boyfriend. my pretty face solina. & whoever. i can't mention all these names all at once. omg & most of all !!!! my mutherfucking BEST FRIEND LEE. i miss her so much, i can't wait until she gets back from california in the end of this month.

lovee jayy.

VANESSA ANNE HUDGENS

she has done it again lol. some more leaked photos of her. i've seen the first couple of ones that was leaked before. lord, her shit was bushy haha. she should've gotten it waxed or shaved or something. this new one [ shown ], i think its still old or something. anyways, i find it nothing wrong with taking pictures of yourself naked. its really normal. still it is embarassing if someone else finds or see it, but some people want others to see, so i dont know lol.

lovee jayy.

SIMPLE

today is friday, woot woot lols. who im kiddin, im not doing anything tonight. anyways, i was getting into say that this song called " SIMPLE " is one of my favorite songs right now. im really feelin' it. my boyfriend just likes the beat ;]

" simple girl, need a simple man "

lovee jayy.

Baby's 1st Birthday

So my baby boy's 1st birthday just recently passed. The party was okay although there were no kids, maybe i need to make friends with more mommies. LOL So yeah we had a party for him on Saturday and my family came through, then his dad's friends came later at night and we ate tons of food and bbq'd.













Tuesday was his actual birthday and we spent the day at Seaside Heights with his daddy's friends. It was nice, not particularly big like Wildwood and AC but at least the water was clean although i think i'd prefer Wildwood cause the beach is FREE. LOL Even though we didn't even have to pay cause we got free wrist bands =] This was the first time Jayden liked playing in the water though, the other two times he cried. But that day he was all splashing and laughing and trying to eat sand.






Then yesterday we went to the hospital for his one year check-up and shots. And while we was waiting he was running around chasing this little black girl and he's all laughing and chuckling while chasing after her it was cute. LOL. I remember when Jayden was little and we went to WIC the kids were all curious and poking their faces in the stroller to look at Jayden and Rick got mad. Now Jayden's doing that shit and i'm like see babe, it's normal for a kid to be curious, now go yell at Jayden LOL. Turns out Jayden's insurance got "terminated" so we went there for nothing and now i gotta do all this bogus paperwork to reapply and then reschedule, damn fuckers.!



Anywho's next birthday is... my B.I.L, Peter then ten days later MINES!!!! We're both gonna be 22, hmm what to do.... I'm planning my whole weekend out and my bitches better come the eff out and party with me or i'm disowning them as my bitches, sike... LOL nah, but i'm totally serious though so GF you better ditch Hieu that weekend and come roll with me!

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So i'm sitting here reposting and reposting and not seeing any pictures, then i was getting mad as shit til i realized fucking fb links suck ass and don't work. My bad, i reposted this like 5million times haha.

POSITIONS

sex positions LOL! i know i may sound like a freak, but whats wrong with being a freak ?

okays, so i was looking at all these sex positions on this website called " SEX INFO101.COM " its in 3-D, so it actually gives you like the full effect haha. i find it very interesting, but some of the positions look the same or something. it kind of look the same, but with different names for each and everyone of them. also, the comments that people leave for those positions, they're such hornballs lol. sex is nature & who cares, am i right ? well just check the site out.

p.s - & why the fuck isn't my fellow bloggers blogging, i understand trinh but what the fuck mary ?! lol. sheeesh, boutta change this blog name to my name. love yah two bitches though =]

lovee jayy.

10 MONTHS

hi hey hello. today is my ten months anniversary with my baby/boyfriend. wow, hell this relationship has been something. we've been through crazy crazy. he says that i am crazy, im not going to deny that.

i love him so much, its more than i can say. he has opened eyes with some certain things. its been awhile for us, before we even became official. he's an asshole though, at times. & im an annoying bitch, but he still loves me right hunny ? lol. plus i wanna choke him too when we're in an argument. sighs* he is my world, & im glad to have him as my boyfriend. there are times when i sit there & think, to me i feel like we DO take each other for granted . . . still he is the best boyfriend in the world. he strives to make me happy all the time, even when he can't. " BEST I'VE EVER HAD " i never wanna lose this, not now. it won't be right if i don't have him . . .

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY HUNNY; ILOVEYOU <3

lovee jayy.