Thursday, November 19, 2009

Age ain't nothing but a number

"Age is nothing but a number" So we've all heard it before. It's not about how many birthdays you have on someone, it's about the experiences you've encountered that gives you more knowledge over another person. And sometimes, it's not even about the experiences. It's about the time, the generation and what's changed between the different generations that one encounters.

So we all eventually bump into or know a person who thinks they know it all. They think oh, because they're old or because they've experienced something they're automatically right all the time. Ehhhh, wrong. What you experienced decades ago, is totally different from what the younger generations are going through now. You might have a little insight that may help, a little advice that may be handy. But just because you've got a couple decades on me does not mean I necessarily have to do or listen to everything you say, ESPECIALLY when it has something to do with MY SON.

I been stressing, having headaches, and been irritated for the last idk how long. I don't wanna be here anymore, I don't deserve to be going through this bullshit and I sure as hell am not sticking around any longer. I shouldn't be told wtf to do with my son, where to go, when to go, and who to see. I'm his fucking mother, I do what I want, when I want, however the hell I want. No I don't like wtf you're telling me to do, get out? Sure will, when I don't bring him around to see you fuckers don't ask why. Wanna send him money, presents, cards? Do it in the mail, if I'm feeling nice, I might send you a picture but that's all you get. Cause people never appreciate what they have until it's gone.

On another note; I find that people who consistently use cigarettes and drugs as their stress reliever are PATHETIC, with a capital P! You know those people who get stressed and gotta run out for a cigarette every 10-15minutes.. Those people who smoke weed as a hobby or sport, just because they're "bored" or "stressed". Like I ain't gonna lie, I used to smoke cigarettes when I was "stressed" or "pissed" or "depressed", but I gave all that up when I became a mother. It's beneficial to my son, he doesn't get second hand smoke from ME. I don't go kiss him and pick him up smelling like a damn ashtray. I don't go running and go cop a blunt or a dutch and roll up an L just because I'm "stressed". And trust me, I'm stressed all the damn time living with these fucking naggers and I don't run outside and smoke a cigarette, or weed every time I'm pissed. Some people just have more control over others. And I haven't went out clubbing or drinking since like JULY! So all this stressing and shit is getting to me and bad. It's just like, some people need to think of their children first. Cause when they're kids grow up doing the same shit their parents are doing and then get punished, the parents have no one to blame but themselves.

FML, thank god I'm out this bitch this weekend..although I'm gonna be struggling.. I rather struggle to meet my needs but do it independently than take the easy way out but be a slave to people and be unappreciated..

4 comments:

jayy said...

ILY ALWAYS <3

JAY said...

As soon as I read the first two paragraphs, I thought, "YO- my parents."
That's what I be tryna stress to people. Just 'cus you're older doesn't automatically categorize you as 'right' all the damn time.

I feel you about the drugs. I still toke every now and then but stress is just an excuse. When I have a kid, I'ma drop it all in a heartbeat.

Hang in there, girlllllll.

Unknown said...

jc's.. never knew you blogged.. i think its pretty cute. express yo feelings! im kinda enjoy readin em. i thought they were a few years old but its notttt. ;0

trinh said...

ILY too gf & Thanks Judy. Blahhhhhhhhhh i wish i could just get out like right this second.!

And Jeffrey who is jc's? Is this Nemo Jeffrey?? LOL