Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Stay-at-home Mothers

So yeah, I'm a stay-at-home Mother. I'm home basically 24/7. I don't work, I don't go to school because I chose to stay home to learn and grow with my son through all his milestones.

Do I get fed up? Yeah, sometimes.. Sometimes, I'd like to just get out for ONE day every once in awhile. Chill with my girls, have a drink, dance, sing, whatever it is..

Do I regret my son? No, never..

I get annoyed, irritated, feel unappreciated, & feel like a ticking time-bomb.

I don't ask for much, really. While I'm home, I'd like some damn cable so me and my son could have our days pass by a little quicker. I'd like good quality working internet, not having to steal the next door neighbor's Wi-Fi and get disconnected every five, ten minutes. I'd like to keep a stable phone line to keep in touch with friends, family.. whatever. I'd like to go out, just to get out and away from the annoying ass naggers in the house.

I didn't say anything when you snuck off and did wtf and played hookie from work. Yeah, i got pissed and ignored your ass for a week but i didn't go out and "drink" or "smoke" weed to get over it. I damn sure ain't question what you did all that day. I even let you have a freebie on Halloween with your boys. And for one night, one freaking night i asked (notice i said i asked) if i could go out with a girl to the bar and you get all attitudey with me talking bout oh you gonna go smoke weed with your friends as a trade off? Then you get even more attitudey with me cause you see some dude aim me? Mmm yeah, you're real fair.

If there ain't no trust, there ain't no relationship. PERIOD

If you can't be a RESPONSIBLE PARENT, then you shouldn't be one at all. That's generally speaking. Parenting should be a 50/50 responsibility not a 90/10.

3 comments:

JAY said...

True. Lol it's amazing how some people can only see one view of things.

Me said...

Aww, I'm so sorry, hon.

That's so unfair for him to do this to you, while you do so much for your baby (his own son). But at the same time, that's just how Vietnamese are, you know? I see it happen all the time.

If you don't mind me asking, are you leaving with HIS family or YOURS? I lived with my bf a couple months back and it was the same situation as yours (minus the baby part). They're such naggers! All they do is bitch and bitch. So I decided to pack my stuff and leave, it was too much for me. :/

Hold strong, hang in there. Things will take a turn for the better...

trinh said...

@ JKV, yeah girl.. some people only do see their selfish side.

@ glitteryeyes, I am living with HIS family and i don't really care all that much what he does. It's the nagging that gets to me the most by the end of the day which makes me turn my anger towards him. As a matter of fact, I've just had my last straw tonight. It is Vietnamese, them old fashioned ones at that. They expect me to be a fucking slave cleaning and doing their every bidding while they don't expect shit from their own kids. I am packing my shit, and I am moving out cause it is definitely way way way too much for me.