WHEN THE ROOF CAVED IN & THE TRUTH CAME OUT

My Dear Girlfriend Trinh,

I love you so much. & you're hurting. It hurts me too, to know whats been going on. People are just lame & a joke. I'll always be here for you, you know that. We're like family. It makes me shed my tears so bad. No close friend likes to know the pain & sorrow that you're having. I love you & baby Jayden ♥

& now . . .

Some people do good & give out to others, but sometimes you get nothing in return? So why bother anymore ? I don't know. Some people doesn't deserve the tragic & bullshit that they have to go through. Dealing with drama & stupidity of others constantly. It's like on repeat. SMH!

. . .

I've been so confused & lost lately. I really don't know what's been going on with me. I go out & put a smile on my face so that no one knows. I'd say, I really did a good job at it. I just wanna get away as far as I can. Away from everyone, just to relax & be by myself. Definetly a vacation or something.

NOTICE :

Notice how our blog is like a diary or something. Thats why its called SFF REAL TALK. SFF stands for something only MY TRINH & JoBABY would know. This is really like xanga. We don't usually blog about you know fashion, music, & such & such. Sometimes I do. BUT we normally use this to release whats on our minds. So we hope you guys feel us on what we're writing or telling; saying, whatevers.

love jayy

Fuck you, and your bitch too

Want something to read? Well tomorrow night when you come home and look at your empty room and empty closet that once had your son's and your EX's belongings but now who's presence is gone you can go cry on the phone to the same bitch you screwed all that up for. Congratulate yourself, hope it was all worth it. But please, don't ever let it spill who it was that you screwed this life up for, cause i promise i will kill the bitch.. and then you .

And to think i came back here and WASTED about 7months on nothing but a PATHETIC COWARD who looked me right in my eye and LIED like a BITCH!.

It only gets worst before it gets better

..holding on for dear life, I feel like I'm way past my breaking point

I just can't wait for that great big sigh of relief once I'm good again..

I really do have to say, blogging helps me steam off a lot.

<3 ntrinht

Age ain't nothing but a number

"Age is nothing but a number" So we've all heard it before. It's not about how many birthdays you have on someone, it's about the experiences you've encountered that gives you more knowledge over another person. And sometimes, it's not even about the experiences. It's about the time, the generation and what's changed between the different generations that one encounters.

So we all eventually bump into or know a person who thinks they know it all. They think oh, because they're old or because they've experienced something they're automatically right all the time. Ehhhh, wrong. What you experienced decades ago, is totally different from what the younger generations are going through now. You might have a little insight that may help, a little advice that may be handy. But just because you've got a couple decades on me does not mean I necessarily have to do or listen to everything you say, ESPECIALLY when it has something to do with MY SON.

I been stressing, having headaches, and been irritated for the last idk how long. I don't wanna be here anymore, I don't deserve to be going through this bullshit and I sure as hell am not sticking around any longer. I shouldn't be told wtf to do with my son, where to go, when to go, and who to see. I'm his fucking mother, I do what I want, when I want, however the hell I want. No I don't like wtf you're telling me to do, get out? Sure will, when I don't bring him around to see you fuckers don't ask why. Wanna send him money, presents, cards? Do it in the mail, if I'm feeling nice, I might send you a picture but that's all you get. Cause people never appreciate what they have until it's gone.

On another note; I find that people who consistently use cigarettes and drugs as their stress reliever are PATHETIC, with a capital P! You know those people who get stressed and gotta run out for a cigarette every 10-15minutes.. Those people who smoke weed as a hobby or sport, just because they're "bored" or "stressed". Like I ain't gonna lie, I used to smoke cigarettes when I was "stressed" or "pissed" or "depressed", but I gave all that up when I became a mother. It's beneficial to my son, he doesn't get second hand smoke from ME. I don't go kiss him and pick him up smelling like a damn ashtray. I don't go running and go cop a blunt or a dutch and roll up an L just because I'm "stressed". And trust me, I'm stressed all the damn time living with these fucking naggers and I don't run outside and smoke a cigarette, or weed every time I'm pissed. Some people just have more control over others. And I haven't went out clubbing or drinking since like JULY! So all this stressing and shit is getting to me and bad. It's just like, some people need to think of their children first. Cause when they're kids grow up doing the same shit their parents are doing and then get punished, the parents have no one to blame but themselves.

FML, thank god I'm out this bitch this weekend..although I'm gonna be struggling.. I rather struggle to meet my needs but do it independently than take the easy way out but be a slave to people and be unappreciated..

CONDOMS

something interesting . . . its old though;

"Condoms are displayed at an international "family-planning" expo in Beijing in April 2009. A Chinese collector of Olympic memorabilia will put some of his mementos on the auction block later this month, including a batch of 5,000 condoms given to competitors at the 2008 Beijing Games"

love jayy

Stay-at-home Mothers

So yeah, I'm a stay-at-home Mother. I'm home basically 24/7. I don't work, I don't go to school because I chose to stay home to learn and grow with my son through all his milestones.

Do I get fed up? Yeah, sometimes.. Sometimes, I'd like to just get out for ONE day every once in awhile. Chill with my girls, have a drink, dance, sing, whatever it is..

Do I regret my son? No, never..

I get annoyed, irritated, feel unappreciated, & feel like a ticking time-bomb.

I don't ask for much, really. While I'm home, I'd like some damn cable so me and my son could have our days pass by a little quicker. I'd like good quality working internet, not having to steal the next door neighbor's Wi-Fi and get disconnected every five, ten minutes. I'd like to keep a stable phone line to keep in touch with friends, family.. whatever. I'd like to go out, just to get out and away from the annoying ass naggers in the house.

I didn't say anything when you snuck off and did wtf and played hookie from work. Yeah, i got pissed and ignored your ass for a week but i didn't go out and "drink" or "smoke" weed to get over it. I damn sure ain't question what you did all that day. I even let you have a freebie on Halloween with your boys. And for one night, one freaking night i asked (notice i said i asked) if i could go out with a girl to the bar and you get all attitudey with me talking bout oh you gonna go smoke weed with your friends as a trade off? Then you get even more attitudey with me cause you see some dude aim me? Mmm yeah, you're real fair.

If there ain't no trust, there ain't no relationship. PERIOD

If you can't be a RESPONSIBLE PARENT, then you shouldn't be one at all. That's generally speaking. Parenting should be a 50/50 responsibility not a 90/10.

ROB & KRISTEN

NEW MOON COUNTDOWN : 10 DAYS

Look at these beautiful pictures of these two from BAZAAR MAGAZINE

They're so damn gorgeous ;]

Here's a part of their interview :

Who spends more time on their hair?

Kristen: "Rob."

Rob: "I have weird personal-space issues, and so I can't stand people -- um, I'll do anything to not have any touch-ups."

Competitive?

Kristen: "Rob. In a very childish way, in every aspect of his life. He'll literally start talking in a different voice if he's won something. He sounds like a five-year-old."

Rob: "I'd say it was even. She said me? Really? When I really win things, it's just like..." [Kristen is correct: He makes a noise like a five-year-old.]

Athletic?

Kristen: "I'm definitely claiming that one. Rob can barely jump rope. I call him Flippy because when he does his stunt rehearsals, he flips around [makes a gesture like a penguin]. And, God, when he tries to run ..."

Rob: "Kristen. You notice it in the film; she looks so much more athletic than I do. And I'm supposed to be the superhero."

Egotistical?

Kristen: "I'd have to say him. I hope he says him too actually. Like every time he looks in the mirror and he twists his hair. Actually, he could give a fuck about his hair. I hope that sarcasm translates."

Rob: "It's kind of a tie. We're both pretty proud people. Her ego is more solid than mine, but mine has soared to such peaks, it's ridiculous. Mine's more erratic, but it can get to a point when it's, like, godlike. Only in my eyes, of course. Sometimes just when I say hello the right way, I'm like, Whoa, I'm so cool."

Who Googles themselves more?

Kristen: "Rob."

Rob: "She would say me, but I reckon it's her. If either one of us catches the other one doing it, we're like, Jesus Christ, is that what you're looking at? And the other one's on their phone pretending to text. I look up my competition more than she does. I'm incredibly shallow. I think she just looks at herself."

Who's the better musician?

Kristen: "Rob. He's a great singer. Heartbreaking."

The most outgoing?

Rob: "I was once, but not so much anymore. Kristen's a little more open now."

Better sport?

Kristen: "Who can hang? Definitely me. He's very sensitive. He's got a fragile ego."

Superstitious?

Kristen: "Rob. He's a little bit more paranoid, so that feeds into superstition more."

Rob: "I am. I believe a lot in karma and stuff. Like when I end up with egg on my face, I'm like, Fate! I was born doomed. But I think it's more being an idiot than superstitious."

They're already working on filming " ECLIPSE "

I'm excited for that one too.

love jayy