Merry New Years, Happy Christmas?

I'm late on it, but Merry late Christmas..
New Years in a couple of days..
and I'm so looking forward to just forgetting
EVERYTHING and EVERYONE.!

Can I just live one fucking year without all this mess and drama with
some stupid ass nigga or some dick-hungry hoes.?
Go ahead honey, he's all yours.

Some hoes need the whole world's supply of dick,
cause one ain't enough for em'.
That's generally speaking, not just pointing out
to one particular individual.
What has the world come to? Dick-hungry ass bitches nowadays..
It ain't cute.. YOU ain't cute.

I'm tryna end this year with a BANG, like seriously.
My little monster is ALL I NEED. He knows who his Mom is, ha.

Downgrade

Soo.. like.. my bro wants to know,

"Have you been to the aquarium lately?"

LMFAO.

At the beginning

I guess I now know why I stayed so long
Cause starting over is just so hard.
Having to put your heart on the line again
only to risk it being used and broken.

..Pass, i'll just put that big wall back up around it again

Moving On'

I don't regret anything'
Cause i deserve the best there is.
And my son deserves soo much more.

SANTA BABY

Dear Santa,

I've been a good girl this year, I supposed . . . nehh, I've been kind of a bad girl also lol. OH WELLS. Deal with it. I'm always super duper excited when Christmas comes around. Santa, I don't ask for much gifts at all. I just want everyone I love thats around me to be healthy, happy & safe! That would be the greatest gift of them all.

love jayy

I am behind on christmas shopping, sighs*

LOST

what do you do when you're confused ? . . .

love jayy

WHEN I LOOK AT YOU

I am in love with this song . . . .

love jayy

My one and only

So I'm 3hours late on it, but Happy Turkey Day..?

I'm thankful for my SON, for I knew since the day he was born, he'd be the only man in my life to ever love me conditionally and always. One man in my life that won't lie or cheat or break my heart. Although I gotta be mean sometimes and give him a spanking cause he deserves it, i love him always. There will never be anyone in the world who could love my son more than I do. <3

I'm also thankful for my girls, for without em' idk where I'd be. All I need are my 3 J's.

Thanksgiving actually sucked ass this year, it wasn't a family thing like I'm used to. But I did get to spend it with my awesome friends! One's I lost touch with and I regret it, but every time I see them they still welcome me back with open arms and loving ;]

I still hate the fact that people use holidays to show their appreciation and thankfulness. You should be thankful for what you have all the time, not just once a year. Same goes for Valentines' Day, show the person you love, love every day don't wait til it's a national holiday.

No black Friday shoppin' for me this year. Christmas is usually my favorite holiday of the year, but this year blahh.. can we just skip it and move onto the NEW Year?

HAPPY THANKSGIVING

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!

- yes its that time to have a feast with your loves

- I am thankful for my whole entire life

- & You guys should be thankful to have me in your life =]

Tomorrow is black friday, & I better find some freakin good sales!

The mall is definetly gonna be packed with crazy people everywhere.

Enjoy Your Turkey Today; muahs.

love jayy

if you think you a bad bitch

come fuckin' see me.

lol ..its funny i knew in my head the answer to my question before i even asked it.. thanks for proving me right.. its pathetic how some bitches just don't know how to keep to themselves and mind their own lives.. such DICK HUNGRY ASSS HOESSS

yeah bitch, i'll see you when i see you.

WHEN THE ROOF CAVED IN & THE TRUTH CAME OUT

My Dear Girlfriend Trinh,

I love you so much. & you're hurting. It hurts me too, to know whats been going on. People are just lame & a joke. I'll always be here for you, you know that. We're like family. It makes me shed my tears so bad. No close friend likes to know the pain & sorrow that you're having. I love you & baby Jayden ♥

& now . . .

Some people do good & give out to others, but sometimes you get nothing in return? So why bother anymore ? I don't know. Some people doesn't deserve the tragic & bullshit that they have to go through. Dealing with drama & stupidity of others constantly. It's like on repeat. SMH!

. . .

I've been so confused & lost lately. I really don't know what's been going on with me. I go out & put a smile on my face so that no one knows. I'd say, I really did a good job at it. I just wanna get away as far as I can. Away from everyone, just to relax & be by myself. Definetly a vacation or something.

NOTICE :

Notice how our blog is like a diary or something. Thats why its called SFF REAL TALK. SFF stands for something only MY TRINH & JoBABY would know. This is really like xanga. We don't usually blog about you know fashion, music, & such & such. Sometimes I do. BUT we normally use this to release whats on our minds. So we hope you guys feel us on what we're writing or telling; saying, whatevers.

love jayy

Fuck you, and your bitch too

Want something to read? Well tomorrow night when you come home and look at your empty room and empty closet that once had your son's and your EX's belongings but now who's presence is gone you can go cry on the phone to the same bitch you screwed all that up for. Congratulate yourself, hope it was all worth it. But please, don't ever let it spill who it was that you screwed this life up for, cause i promise i will kill the bitch.. and then you .

And to think i came back here and WASTED about 7months on nothing but a PATHETIC COWARD who looked me right in my eye and LIED like a BITCH!.

It only gets worst before it gets better

..holding on for dear life, I feel like I'm way past my breaking point

I just can't wait for that great big sigh of relief once I'm good again..

I really do have to say, blogging helps me steam off a lot.

<3 ntrinht

Age ain't nothing but a number

"Age is nothing but a number" So we've all heard it before. It's not about how many birthdays you have on someone, it's about the experiences you've encountered that gives you more knowledge over another person. And sometimes, it's not even about the experiences. It's about the time, the generation and what's changed between the different generations that one encounters.

So we all eventually bump into or know a person who thinks they know it all. They think oh, because they're old or because they've experienced something they're automatically right all the time. Ehhhh, wrong. What you experienced decades ago, is totally different from what the younger generations are going through now. You might have a little insight that may help, a little advice that may be handy. But just because you've got a couple decades on me does not mean I necessarily have to do or listen to everything you say, ESPECIALLY when it has something to do with MY SON.

I been stressing, having headaches, and been irritated for the last idk how long. I don't wanna be here anymore, I don't deserve to be going through this bullshit and I sure as hell am not sticking around any longer. I shouldn't be told wtf to do with my son, where to go, when to go, and who to see. I'm his fucking mother, I do what I want, when I want, however the hell I want. No I don't like wtf you're telling me to do, get out? Sure will, when I don't bring him around to see you fuckers don't ask why. Wanna send him money, presents, cards? Do it in the mail, if I'm feeling nice, I might send you a picture but that's all you get. Cause people never appreciate what they have until it's gone.

On another note; I find that people who consistently use cigarettes and drugs as their stress reliever are PATHETIC, with a capital P! You know those people who get stressed and gotta run out for a cigarette every 10-15minutes.. Those people who smoke weed as a hobby or sport, just because they're "bored" or "stressed". Like I ain't gonna lie, I used to smoke cigarettes when I was "stressed" or "pissed" or "depressed", but I gave all that up when I became a mother. It's beneficial to my son, he doesn't get second hand smoke from ME. I don't go kiss him and pick him up smelling like a damn ashtray. I don't go running and go cop a blunt or a dutch and roll up an L just because I'm "stressed". And trust me, I'm stressed all the damn time living with these fucking naggers and I don't run outside and smoke a cigarette, or weed every time I'm pissed. Some people just have more control over others. And I haven't went out clubbing or drinking since like JULY! So all this stressing and shit is getting to me and bad. It's just like, some people need to think of their children first. Cause when they're kids grow up doing the same shit their parents are doing and then get punished, the parents have no one to blame but themselves.

FML, thank god I'm out this bitch this weekend..although I'm gonna be struggling.. I rather struggle to meet my needs but do it independently than take the easy way out but be a slave to people and be unappreciated..

CONDOMS

something interesting . . . its old though;

"Condoms are displayed at an international "family-planning" expo in Beijing in April 2009. A Chinese collector of Olympic memorabilia will put some of his mementos on the auction block later this month, including a batch of 5,000 condoms given to competitors at the 2008 Beijing Games"

love jayy

Stay-at-home Mothers

So yeah, I'm a stay-at-home Mother. I'm home basically 24/7. I don't work, I don't go to school because I chose to stay home to learn and grow with my son through all his milestones.

Do I get fed up? Yeah, sometimes.. Sometimes, I'd like to just get out for ONE day every once in awhile. Chill with my girls, have a drink, dance, sing, whatever it is..

Do I regret my son? No, never..

I get annoyed, irritated, feel unappreciated, & feel like a ticking time-bomb.

I don't ask for much, really. While I'm home, I'd like some damn cable so me and my son could have our days pass by a little quicker. I'd like good quality working internet, not having to steal the next door neighbor's Wi-Fi and get disconnected every five, ten minutes. I'd like to keep a stable phone line to keep in touch with friends, family.. whatever. I'd like to go out, just to get out and away from the annoying ass naggers in the house.

I didn't say anything when you snuck off and did wtf and played hookie from work. Yeah, i got pissed and ignored your ass for a week but i didn't go out and "drink" or "smoke" weed to get over it. I damn sure ain't question what you did all that day. I even let you have a freebie on Halloween with your boys. And for one night, one freaking night i asked (notice i said i asked) if i could go out with a girl to the bar and you get all attitudey with me talking bout oh you gonna go smoke weed with your friends as a trade off? Then you get even more attitudey with me cause you see some dude aim me? Mmm yeah, you're real fair.

If there ain't no trust, there ain't no relationship. PERIOD

If you can't be a RESPONSIBLE PARENT, then you shouldn't be one at all. That's generally speaking. Parenting should be a 50/50 responsibility not a 90/10.

ROB & KRISTEN

NEW MOON COUNTDOWN : 10 DAYS

Look at these beautiful pictures of these two from BAZAAR MAGAZINE

They're so damn gorgeous ;]

Here's a part of their interview :

Who spends more time on their hair?

Kristen: "Rob."

Rob: "I have weird personal-space issues, and so I can't stand people -- um, I'll do anything to not have any touch-ups."

Competitive?

Kristen: "Rob. In a very childish way, in every aspect of his life. He'll literally start talking in a different voice if he's won something. He sounds like a five-year-old."

Rob: "I'd say it was even. She said me? Really? When I really win things, it's just like..." [Kristen is correct: He makes a noise like a five-year-old.]

Athletic?

Kristen: "I'm definitely claiming that one. Rob can barely jump rope. I call him Flippy because when he does his stunt rehearsals, he flips around [makes a gesture like a penguin]. And, God, when he tries to run ..."

Rob: "Kristen. You notice it in the film; she looks so much more athletic than I do. And I'm supposed to be the superhero."

Egotistical?

Kristen: "I'd have to say him. I hope he says him too actually. Like every time he looks in the mirror and he twists his hair. Actually, he could give a fuck about his hair. I hope that sarcasm translates."

Rob: "It's kind of a tie. We're both pretty proud people. Her ego is more solid than mine, but mine has soared to such peaks, it's ridiculous. Mine's more erratic, but it can get to a point when it's, like, godlike. Only in my eyes, of course. Sometimes just when I say hello the right way, I'm like, Whoa, I'm so cool."

Who Googles themselves more?

Kristen: "Rob."

Rob: "She would say me, but I reckon it's her. If either one of us catches the other one doing it, we're like, Jesus Christ, is that what you're looking at? And the other one's on their phone pretending to text. I look up my competition more than she does. I'm incredibly shallow. I think she just looks at herself."

Who's the better musician?

Kristen: "Rob. He's a great singer. Heartbreaking."

The most outgoing?

Rob: "I was once, but not so much anymore. Kristen's a little more open now."

Better sport?

Kristen: "Who can hang? Definitely me. He's very sensitive. He's got a fragile ego."

Superstitious?

Kristen: "Rob. He's a little bit more paranoid, so that feeds into superstition more."

Rob: "I am. I believe a lot in karma and stuff. Like when I end up with egg on my face, I'm like, Fate! I was born doomed. But I think it's more being an idiot than superstitious."

They're already working on filming " ECLIPSE "

I'm excited for that one too.

love jayy

REAL TALK PT 3

As I always say . . . .

Friends Becomes Associates

- REAL TALK.

I know a few, one or two.

Especially when we use to call each other " MY BITCH " or what not. & now, hardly speak because I don't know what. Drama, or being friends with someone that they don't like. I just don't know what it is. This is life, & you move on. People come & go. Its 2009 though, people out there are dying everyday because of violence & etc. We need peace in this world. Well, I'm not gonna have peace with this one bitch .. LOL.

As I was saying . . . everyone/group of friends needs to learn that, even though one friend is cool with someone they dislike, it should be okay; as long as it doesn't affect their/our friendship. We all don't like drama. BUT if that person decides to turn on you, then its a different story, I suppose. I agree that it'll be fucked up.

We're all grown, its time to act like one. We're not getting any younger. Friendships/people fade, you'll grow to learn who will always be by your side. Just let the ones who aren't going to be, go. I love who I have now, & I don't call anyone my best friend no more. I have one & that will remain the same, though she's thousands miles away. I MISS YOU, we still try to keep in contact. Hurry up & get a phone. & for my main groupies, lol; you know who you are =] MTJ♥

love jayy.

SONG OF THE DAY

So, I really like this song here.

I've been listening to it all day.

So HERE'S SONG OF THE DAY;

Jessie James - I Look So Good Without You

Oh, & SHOUTOUT TO JUDY

From WTFREADS

Thanks Girly, for nominating my/our blog on your thing.

Idk how it works neither, so I'll just give a shout to you instead =]

love jayy.

COACH

Here are a couple of Coach's Most Popular ItemS

& I want them all !!

Tartan Glam Tote - $ 198.00

Op Art Chain Link Claire - $358.00

A great all-day bag with a generous interior in their signature Op Art print.

Pave Multi Charm Bracelet - $248.00

The luxurious take on the charm bracelet, complete with signature Coach details and one-of-a-kind charms.

Poppy Tartan Large Wristlet - $98.00

Optic C. Double Charm Necklace - $228.00

Elegant, unique, refined. Pairs with their Optic C stud or layered earrings

love jayy.

FACEBOOK

I'm addicted to this game on facebook called " CAFE WORLD " lol.

Two of my friends got me into, & its cool.

Get to cook up meals & stuff, also to keep getting to a higher level when you're serving lots of customers & etc.

So ..

Jamiee Thach

ADD ME ON FB, if ya like.

love jayy.

OLD LADIES

This is way too hilarious haha

love jayy.

THIGH HIGH BOOTS

So its to be said that thigh high boots or boots thats over the knee is the the new 2009 - 2010 winter must have. Some of them are cute though, but I prefer just like regular length boots. The ones thats alittle under the knee. BUT I wouldn't mind wearin these, they're cute.

" CHLOE "

love jayy.

ALWAYS PHILLIES <3

Wow, it has been awhile for either me or my fellow bloggers to blog lol. I've miss it though, just been too busy with our lives ya know ?

PHIGHTIN PHILLS'

Thank You Guys for giving us as your fans such a great season this year. I'll always stand by you boys no matter what. " MY BOYS " You guys did your best, at least yall didn't stop trying. & earned everything yall have done .

As you already know, the Phillies lost the World Series to the fags New York Yankees a couple of days ago, Congrats Yankees, congrats for buying yall championship. STILL OURS WILL BE MEAN WAY MUCH MORE THAN YOURS. We've worked hard for ours last year & even to get into this year. We're gonna come back next year, so no worries. Remember, it was never like we weren't champions, we was & still are!

It was so heart breaking for me to watch them lose, every other fan probably was too ..

He's my favorite boy; Chase Utley; 2nd Base; scored a couple HRS in this 2009 series.

love jayy.

FOREVERR

"without a wrinkle in today
cuz there is no tomorrow
just some picture perfect day
to last a whole lifetime
and it never ends
cause all we have to do is hit rewind
so lets just stay in the moment, smoke some weed,
drink some wine,
reminisce talk some shit forever young is in your mind
leave a mark that can never erase neither space nor time"

love jayy.

HALLOWEEN

I would probably be this for halloween this year.

" Mushroom Alice In Wonderland "

A tad bit slutty? lol kinda haha. I didn't even get to buy it yet, maybe sometime this weekend. Need to pick out a costume for my son too.

love jayy.

WTF?

I was looking at one of my facebook friends profile & she found this. so WTF IS THIS? would you guys even wear this ? Lol. It looks like crab claws or something. Horrible & ugly looking. For some reason its going to be in the 2010 spring collection. It shouldn't be.

THIS IS A FASHION MISTAKE/ERROR.

love jayy.

GROWIN & CHANGES

So, I was looking at the calendar & just realized that its only two more months left in the year. Wow, time flies by really fast. I'm getting older, & my son is getting older, also all my friends plus my parents.

I remember like it was yesterday that this little bad ass monster of mines was just born. Now he's 3 going on 4 upcoming MARCH of next year. No, I haven't been the best mother but I've been a hell of a mother to this little boy. He's the one who keeps me ALIVE, I can't be selfish. I wasn't use to having to take care of another person but myself. Times has been hard, he knows that his mommy is trying to give him a life better than hers. Going towards people; no one has the right to judge someone on their parenting skills unless the person is extremely fucked up. NEGLECTING THEM 100%. If you wanna judge on how I am being a parent, do me a favor, shut the fuck up & jump off a bridge. I know what I'm doing. Thanks.

My parents - Omg parents will parents. They nag like non-stop & we go on to saying how much we hate them & so on. I say it all the time, but they gave me my life & they can take it away [ what my mom says ]. C'mon, who's the ones who provided us with shelter, making sure we're going to school to get a good education, spoilin us & providing us with everything else. ITS THEM. It sucks cause in life, you have to grow old, & you can't reduce your age. It saddens me everyday knowing that my parents are getting old. I want them to be here with me forever, I can't imagine the day when god decides to take them away. I regret that I couldn't be a perfect child but no one is perfect. Just as long I accomplished at least one thing that I know that made them proud. I love my parents to death & you should appreciate yours. BUT those who has parents that are drug addicts & all that shit, then you're allowed to say fuck em' BUT for those who has everything in the world given by your parents, then YOU DO have to appreciate them.

I'm working on growing to be a responsible young adult & not a little girl. Since I'm 19 now & my last year being a teenager, hell yeah I'm going to enjoy it; having to be a grown person also. I've been through lots, but I'm sure there's people who've been through even more fucked up things than me. I've grown to learn, but still having trouble to understand the meaning of things. Sometimes when I speak, I do not hear what the hell I be saying. My boyfriend says that, because I don't make sense & when I'm wrong, I always try to be right. Lol. Yeah, I know. Life, is all about learning right ? learning from your mistakes & everything.

" Whatever don't kills you only makes you stronger "

love jayy.

THERE'S NO SUCH THING AS REAL ANYMORE

I haven't updated for awhile, so here's one for ya.

Today is my Daddy's 50th birthday! If he makes it to live a 100years old, thats exactly half of his life today. I hope he lives a long and HAPPY life, everyone deserves to be happy. I called him all the way in VN to wish him a happy birthday. I'm such a thoughtful and loving daughter, yes I am. =] Which one of his other kids put aside time out of their own selfish lives to do that, hmm i wonder...


Anywhos after these last couple of days, I've realized that:
A. I really can't trust anyone, and
B. Who isn't two-faced or fake? EVERYONE is. Point blank.
I just saw this the other day and it's the Mf'ing truth!

"Quit telling people your secrets when you know they are not going to keep them! And if you keep telling them, then quit getting mad when they tell your secrets!" <--- same goes for doing shit for people.

"Quit trying to change people! IT DOESN'T WORK! Quit cussing people out when you know that they are just being the miserable and jealous people that they are!" <--- same goes for talking shit or trying to beat them up (waste of time)

I hear and see this allllllll the damnnnn time
"People got nothing better to do than talk shit or run their mouths"
STFU CAUSE YOU TALKED, TALK, AND
PROBABLY STILL ARE TALKING SHIT!
WHO DOESN'T TALK SHIT? EVERYONE TALKS SHITTTTT STFU AND SUCK A DICK ALREADY. DUMB ASSES!

I seriously don't expect my girls to choose my side over someone else that I have problems or disagreements with. BUT, if this other person has fucked you over or done something to show that they are
A. not as good of a person as you thought they were or
B. trustworthy, then that should be enough for you to make up your mind about them. This goes back to my "Real Talk" blog.
"Remember when you used to talk shit about a person before you started kissing their ass" Yes, that. Same goes for family,
"BLOOD IS NOT ALWAYS THICKER THAN WATER"
I know from experience. Some people would just shit in your face to get wtf they want. I'm not even gonna lie, I used to talk mad shit bout girls and be all "hey" or what not to their faces. I probably still do it til this day. So down to the point,
"THERE'S NO SUCH THING AS REAL ANYMORE,
EVERYONES FAKE EVERYONES TWOFACED!"
Now, it's all about who got enough balls to say what to who.

Everyone's all, "omg that girl is so two-faced, omg, that girl is soo fake" Alright, it's 2009 we know everyone's fake and two-faced. Now, we're moving onto 2010. Girl better have some BALLS, if not she'd just be stuck with the title of being a pussy ass bitch. Okay moving on..


In some cases though, you really CAN'T hate someone forever. I tried, it didn't happen. You ever watch them stupid movies that are so stupid, it's funny? Yeah well this is like the same case scenario. So what can you do cause then you'd be stuck with the whole "she's fake, she's two-faced" title. okay whatever, I'll admit to any goddamn bitch that i talked shit about her. I seriously dislike girls who talk shit about people and claim to be those "non-fighters" or "peacemakers" or "ima lover, not a fighter" people. STFU if you gonna talk shit about someone, you better be damn fucking ready to back that mouth up or else it's just gonna get busted.

REALTALK.

Okay so i really did have some cases where i talked shit about someone, they talked shit about me. Then in some miracle work of god, we just became "alright" or "cool" again. Its cool I guess, I ain't gonna be all fake and say I didn't talk shit about you. Cause best bets are, if you talked shit about me, I most likely, most certainly had my fair shares of say about you too boo. Some people are just that mature enough to not have to go to the whole "whattt bitch you said what about me? oh fuck you, nah we ain't cool" Nah, you talked shit about me, i talked shit about you. We're over that? Okay... moving forward.

Okay am I babbling too much? Nough said. Tune in for my next blog cause I know you love reading my REALTALK =D have a good night.

UMMM ..

So yesterday was my 19th Birthday. Woot Woot. Plus 1 Year Anni. I'm pretty sad because the day went by so fast. I hardly did much though, just went out to eat with my boyfriend. THIS WEEKEND though, I'll be partyin my butt off. 19 already, last year to be a teenager. & I'll hit the big 2-0 next October. So many people said happy birthday to me, I lost count. Thanks guys, I appreciate it.

I've been missin my gossip girls episodes, sucks. Tonight 90210 will be on. I love watchin it. Oo0o yeahs, 2nd episode of the hills tonight too!

In this season 2 of 90210. Adrianna, is so god damn pretty. She looks way better with long hair. & her eyes are gorgeous as ever.

love jayy.

OCTOBER

The second day of October already. That was so quick & the weather is gettin cold here over in the east coast or where I am at which is Philadelphia. I hate it. I need to go winter shopping. I need a new pea coat, some uggs, boots & son on.

Its officially 3 more days until my birthday

+ one year anniversary.

Halloween is coming up in the end of the month. I'm still debating on what I should be. I went to the costumes stores early this week, I didn't see any cute ones or interesting & I went to two of them. Gotta figure out what my son is going to be too. It'll definetly be cold for sure that day, so make sure to put on another layer of clothese under your kids costumes, parents ! Lol.

I want to go to dorney park or six flags for their october fest. Didn't even get the chance to go during the freakin summer. & that's bullshit. So I'll drag my boyfriend & friends to go. Anyways, I will come back next week & blog about make-up, fall season fashion or some other stuff. Toodles.

love jayy.

MYTOUCH

Okays nothing really changed since the last time I've really blogged. Its officially 4 more days until my birthdayyyy. AHH I am super stoked. I'll be only 19 though. Its a good number or age I guess .. even more exciting it will also be MY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY with my BOYFRIEND =D .. Anyways ..

My boyfriend had got me the new t-mobile's MYTOUCH for my birthday =] He's the best. He gave it to me early, like 2 days ago. No more of that SIDEKICK LIFE, gotta switch it up. At first, I was excited to use the phone, then later for some reason it started to pissed me off cause none of the apps or anything was working; even the internet. I thought that since I've got unlimited everything on my sidekick, it would work on the mytouch; but it didnt. So I've changed my sidekick plan to the mytouch. Overall, the mytouch is a good phone though, when you have the internet and stuff up and running. Its also a decent phone & ILOVEIT.

I got the one in black.

love jayy.

UPCOMING

hey bloggers. anyways it's

5 more days until my birthdayyy.

best believe i'll be partyin hardd.

love jayy.

FOOTBALL

yes so & I am a female.

GO NEW YORK GIANTS !!

I live in Philly, but I am not an EAGLES FAN. I do watch their games though.

GIANTS will be playing againt Dallas Cowboys today @ 8:20pm

love jayy.

MORE

THE VAMPIRE DIARIES; so far the first episode called " PILOT " I love it ! Its similiar to Twilight though, since its vampire love thing with mortals but theres still a difference btwn them.

Second episode is called " the night of the comet " so stay tune to watch it on CW. Every thursdays @ 8pm.

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I can't wait until Twilight's " NEW MOON " hits theaters. I'm still on the 3rd book " Eclipse " I've been just so lazy to read it lol. But when I do, I get in the zone & so into the whole story. I've found another official trailer of it.

in theaters NOVEMBER 20 2009

love jayy.

THE HILLS

So excited to watch this fall season, though LAUREN won't be in it =[ but " THE BITCH IS BACK " - Kristin Cavallari from LAGUNA BEACH season is gonna be in the show & I think its going to be interesting. More drama of course, along with Heidi; Spencer; Audrina; Stephanie; Justin Bobby; Brody & so on.

premiers on sept. 29 @ 10pm.

love jayy.

IM BACK

hello mi amors! i've missed blogging. my laptop is literally broken so i can't blog at home or anything. so the only time i can blog is over at my boyfriend's house. & GIRLFRIEND, thanks for being there when i needed someone to talk to. i have no time for BS with " little girls "

okays, we need more followers, so whoever lands on our blog page, please follow us. pretty please with a cherry on top of a sundae ;] also thanks to those who stops by our page from all different cities & countries.

its late so i'll blog with topics in a couple of hours. goodnight / goodmorning world.

kisses & hugs.

love jayy.

2kinds of love

So one of my girls is going through some immature youngboul shit and all i gotta say is..

WTF is up with these homewreckin' onourmandick-ridin' type bitches.?

1. If a nigga gotta girl, YOU as a "woman" should have enough self respect for YOURSELF and HIS GIRL to fall back.

2. Don't sit there and talk your side shit ONLINE, ON AIM, ON FB TRYING to sound hardcore and ghetto when you really ain't cause you hiding behind your computer/phone/family/friends.


Little girls just need to get they ass beat talkn' all that wreckless shit.
They'd make up anything just to bring someone down to make theirself look better.

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On to some other shit; I'm now officially 22years old. It feels no different, i didn't have a party or go out to celebrate which i was quite disappointed, but i got over it. Instead, i just went to the movies and got a late dinner.

There's a lot of family shit going on thats erking the shit outta me.
Why are girls so stupid? They'd leave their family and education just to be with a nigga who ain't got shit but dick to feed them with.

FAMILY is EVERYTHING!
THEY ALWAYS COME FIRST!!!
There's 2kinds of love. Love for your family and love love. They're both different and you can't cross the two unless you fuck one over for the other, then you're just fucked up.
Some parents are just unfair, i get it they don't know how to compromise and in that situation, yeah you got every right to do what you wanna do for your love if you're doing everything else right.
But other parents, the ones who just want their kid to have a great education for a great future.. but their kid is just selfish and fucked up in the head they'd shit in their parents' face if it means they could be with their bfs/gfs. Yeah, thats them spoiled kids, the ones that don't appreciate shit. Just steal, take take then leave without a word. I hate them types. I wished that person would've stayed gone and never came back.


Anywhos my brother is coming back from jail tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Twin & GF, things will get better you'll see. Keep your heads up ;]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY GIRLFRIEND TRINH!
LOVE YOU TRIICKKKK ♥

love jayy.

CHILD ABUSE

I just had to write another blog, because I am so aggravated about these kind of stories. This story isn't new or anything though.

" WORCESTER, Mass. -Newly released court documents allege that a Massachusetts man who authorities say severely beat his son on Father's Day and is charged with killing the 7-year-old had choked the boy, hit him with a belt, shoved him into the wall, sat on him and struck him in the stomach.
The documents show much of the alleged abuse took place while 36-year-old Leslie Schuler's fiancee, Tiffany Hyman, looked on but made no attempt to stop it.
The documents were released on Thursday at the request of The Telegram & Gazette newspaper following a six-week impoundment requested by the prosecution.
Schuler, of Worcester (WUH'-stur) is charged with murder and several counts of assault and battery. He is being held without bail. Investigators said the boy, who moved from Alabama to live with his father, was severely beaten on June 21, Father's Day, and died a few days later "

info from http://www.telegram.com/

Abusing a child & murdering them is disgusting & apalling. No child should be going through this, they know nothing. I hope for all those parents & non-parents who does this goes straight to hell. Its BULLSHIT. The stupidity of people thinking they'll get away with these kind of stuff. For sure you'll pay the consequences. I'm a mom & I love my son. I wouldn't physically harm him like these psychos out here. You're suppose to be a model figure for them, provide for them, give them what they need. NOT TO KILL THEM & ETC. DUMBASSES !! UGHS.

love jayy.

11MONTHS

11 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY ♥

one more month until our one year

& on the same day as my 19th birthday

=] very excited. love you even though i hate you sometimes.

muahs.

& this is my bad ass son!

p.s- i'll keep you posted with more decent topics to blog about.

love jayy.

IS IT TRUE ?

There was a rumor going around saying that MEGAN FOX was A MAN. For me I don't believe it. She's so god damn hot & theres no way in hell that she is !! I am highly upset. I was reading something off the internet saying how she is . . .

" LOS ANGELES, CA – The internet has been abuzz since this Sunday’s Golden Globes ceremony, where Megan Fox jokingly remarked that she looked like a man.
When interviewed on the red carpet, she said “I look like Alan Alda in drag. I’m a tranny. I’m a man.”
At the time, reporters passed it off as a jovial attempt to cover for her nerves.
However, today she has cleared the air and officially reported: she’s really a man.
Megan Fox was born Mitchell Reed Fox in Rockwood, Tennessee. From an early age, Mitchell showed an interest in both performing and women’s clothing. When having a preacher lay hands on him did not ‘cure’ him of these interests, his parents simply put him on the pageant circuit.
By the age of 13, Mitchell had already started a career as a female child performer called ‘Megan Fox’. Making her debut on an Olsen Twins straight-to-video release, the twins have kept his secret all this time.
As a sweet 16 present, Fox’s parents offered him sexual reassignment surgery, which, given their child’s career, they’d hoped to write off as a business expense. Unfortunately laws prohibit such surgery to be done to minors.
Since then Megan has been working non-stop, and been included on many Hottest Women lists in publications around the world.
Megan, as she goes by now exclusively, also noted this Sunday how much she wants Salma Hayek’s figure. She has even scheduled surgery later this month to get it. After the two met in New York this week, Hayek offered to have a cast made of her bust so doctors can match them exactly on Megan Fox’s chest "

& then this other website said she wasn't so I don't know. I am so confused. A person who use to look like a man, does not look as gorgeous as this !!

anyways, on september 18, 2009; her new movie called " JENNIFER'S BODY " will be in theaters. so don't forget to go out & watch it.

love jayy.

VICTORIA'S SECRET

I haven't blog since last week & I've missed it. my stupid laptop was being stupid. back to making this blog interesting . . .

Victoria's Secret Push Up Bra with Gel Curve.

[ i love this bra ]

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the solids & prints are $42; laced trim are $48.

all girls would know, & its in all these differet colors.

shop @ http://www.victoriassecret.com/

love jayy.

I Remember When

I remember the first year of me and babes' relationship. We went through a LOT of ups and downs. I can honestly say the main problem was his ex's. These girls just didn't know how to hopp off and stay off. No, i don't believe in being friends with someone you once had an emotional or sexual relationship with. He did alot of wrong and i used to ask myself why i still stayed through all the heartbreak. People used to call me stupid, but i said i was stuck on stupid love. Then one day that summer as i sat in his room all alone while he left me home as always, i just got fed up. I walked back and fourth to the train station at some 3-4am in Camden. Then i walked back to his house, told myself if he came home in a half hour i'd give it one more try. He'd been out since 1am and came home 7am and went straight to sleep, not even realizing i had cutt myself. Yes, i know i was stupid back then.. [crazy thing was my blood stains were still on his pillow 4months later!] The next day i just left, called quits and told myself i deserve better. If he really loved me he'd chase after me but he didnt..

Until 3months later when he realized the girl that he screwed me over for wasn't all she was cracked up to be. He came back, when i had set my life straight. My problem was never letting go of the past and heartaches. I always brought up problems, which made us argue, which pushed him away. We was always arguing about a girl, this girl that girl. He just has issues of telling a bitch to fuck off! I, however have no problem cursing a bitch out and telling her to fuck off my man.

Anywhos it took him a LONG while to finally just grow the hell up. He still has problems letting go of his fiends. I felt like a mother long before i became one. Well i finally was able to let go of the past, and we are as happy as ever. Well ever since i came back from Florida that is. I guess it took me leaving and writing some bullshit April Fools joke about me getting married and some dumb retard believing it and running back and telling him for him to realize he better act right or i'm gone with his son forever.

We have a mutual understanding now, NO BITCHES, PERIOD! If we see one of our ex's [emotional or sexual] we DON'T acknowledge their presence, let alone say hi or talk. OR ELSE. Isn't that right babe? LOL



Man we used to take soo many pictures, well I took pictures. He didn't care much then. Thank god i deleted all his pictures with him and any other tricks from his past. There's only room for one girl in this guy's life and that's MEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEME. Baby knows i do it better than any trick he ever had, i'm WIFEY. Yes, I got that ring on my finger.

Keyshia Kole's I remember brings back sooo many bad memories from 2007. I'm glad I'm finally strong enough to let go of the past and pain, and be able to build a happy forever with him. We have a beautiful one year old that looks just like him. What guy wouldn't want a son who looks just like him? LOL.

Moral of the story: If you're hurting too much, it's time to let go. If it's meant to be, they'll come back. Holding grudges just tears you more apart. Good healthy relationships are built on trust and happiness.

So yeah, I know I was stupid, I know he was fucked up. But I did my fair share of dirty too as he says. So Ladies, next time you wanna talk shit about another girls' relationship, remember how you once were stupid yourself. Because unfortunately, all girls have one time or another been treated like shit by a guy because guys are assholes! And they never appreciate what they have until they're close to losing it.

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P.S. I love getting together with my Twin, we have some fun, crazy ass talks. We don't call each other BFF's because they're so over-rated. Chicks now a days call every girl they chill with their BFF until one goes their seperate way then they find a new one.

POMERANIANS

omg, they're are too adorable !! & i want one. i've been making baby faces at my boyfriend, so he has said that he'll get me one for my 19th birthday in october =] i hope he does. i want one that looks like this with white fur as well. the gender doesn't matter to me.

love jayy.

REAL TALK

I was talking about this type of shit with one of my girls today...

And this is generally speaking.. Remember before you met your now called "friends", "bffs", "associates" whatever and such.. Remember how you used to talk shit about them when you first met them like; "damn that bitch look ugly, weird, skinny, fat etc.." You was basically sizing them up, grilling them, staring when they wasn't looking.. then talking shit behind their back.

Then remember when somehow ya'll became friends.. got closer, Chilled with each other through other people then added each other on myspace, facebook, and aim. Then you used to comment them like "hey girl, boo, hun, sweetie, gorgeous, sexy etc..." "you so pretty, cute, hot, gorgeous etc etc..., let's chill, hang, etc.." Then behind their back you talking shit like: "she looks weird in person, she look ugly." yada yadaaa yadaaaa... Yeah well it was all FAKE!

I call those the ASS LICKING BITCHES.. You know, the type that be kissing ass.. talking shit bout someone then run and lick their ass when they need a friend or someone to talk to.. Yeah, that's you. Some people are still buddy buddy with that person they was kissing ass to, cause the other person doesn't know the trash one talked about them.. Others caught on and dropped them fake ass two-facing bitches.


*STOP WORRYING ABOUT ME, MY DUDE, & MY FUCKING CUTE ASS SON. You riding our dicks hard as shit and bitch, we ain't do shit to you. Threatened for nothing... If i wanted to do something trust me hunnie, i would've been had you. You one of them trick ass hoe's that be at every club event for FREE cause you be sucking some DICK dancing on every nigga to get free drinks. DEFINITION:TRICKN'! BAMMM, bitch you ain't got shit on me.

THIS IS DIRECTED TOWARDS EVERYONE:
If you gonna talk shit boutta bitch, say it to her.. don't just talk your side shit and hide behind people when you see her.


Anywho's ... Babe is off for the next two days, yesssss BEACH TIME!!! I can't wait til September!
And it was my brother's birthday yesterday. Too bad he's away but he'll be back in September he's 26. And BiL's birthday is tomorrow. He's at the strip club lol LOSER happy early birthday

MAC - LOVE THAT LOOK COLLECTION

This is MAC's "Cosmetic Love That Look" Official Collection

for FALL 2009

Eye Shadows: (All LE, all Starflash formula) $14.00USD

Grand Entrance - Cool apricot beige (Repromote from Starflash)
Dreamaker - Frosty yellow gold (Repromote from Starflash)
Smoke & Diamonds - Frosty dirty gray taupe (Repromote from Starflash)
Glamour Check! - Reddish brown (Repromote from Starflash)
Strike A Pose - Dirty deep sea blue
Ego - Light yellow pink
Fashion Groupie - Light, blue violet
Unbasic White - Snow white
One-Off - Medium green with silver pearl
Rated R - Light, yellow green
Style Snob - Dirty pink brown with gold pearl
Fashion Light - Gray-green with gold pearl

this is my favorite - smoke & diamonds

only because i love making my eyes smokey & use it constantly

Pearlglide Liners: (All LE) $14.50USD

Fly By Blu - Light blue with blue glitter (Repromote from Suite Array)
Molasses - Brown with mid-tone brown glitter (Repromote from Suite Array)
Rave - Deep purple with purple glitter (Repromote from Suite Array)
Black Russian - Black with navy blue glitter (Repromote from Suite Array)

love jayy.

MILEY CYRUS

Miley on this month's cover for ELLE Magazine

August 2009 issue

& some photos from her photoshoot

she's grown so much & i simply adore her.

her interview on why she's not a kid anymore :

On the value of style: “I would pay $500 for the jeans that we make for $20. I’m really into high fashion.”
On natural beauty: “I like these crooked. I love my teeth. My dad won’t let me fix my teeth or cut my hair. He loves it. He’s like, ‘It’s you!’”

On Justin Gaston, her boyfriend at the time of the interview: “We’re together, and then again, we’re not. Some people see us more as friends and don’t get why we work in a relationship. They’re like, ‘It’s weird, best friends shouldn’t date!’ But the person that you eventually spend the rest of your life with – I’m not saying it’s him – why are you going to wake up with someone every day and not want to hang out with them?”
About the glamorous life: “The most fun thing about prom is having that one special night when you dress up and you feel like a princess, and honestly, I get to do that one night a lot.”

On her new clothing line with Max Azria for Wal-Mart:“The jeans are my favorite part of the entire line. Because, like, literally this is going to be good for, like, Middle America, and it will be great for kids that really want to be in fashion but that don’t have it available.”

On the difficulties of being a teen star and why she’s friends with other young performers: “It’s hard for all of us. There are so many people that could be using you. So me and Nick and Demi, we don’t need anything from each other. We got our own thing going on.”

love jayy.

RE-TOUCHED

okays, edit to my " AUDI " post;

known as : an AUDI S5 also

better pictures i've found of it.

its a beauty .. oooh yea.

love jayy.

RANDOM

" I believe everything happens for a reason. People change so you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so that you will eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes, good things fall apart, so better things can fall together "

- marilyn monroe

love jayy.

"If you trickn', then i'm treatn'."

So Me, Babe, the baby and BiL went to Friday's earlier in the day and ate together before babe and BiL hadda go to work.. BTW, Friday's Cajun Chicken and Shrimp Pasta is DELICIOUS!! On the way home, I don't know how it came up but BiL was telling us how the other day him and his boy was eatting at his Uncle's Pho job. Then some jawns came strolling in and sat down in the table right next to them and his boy was like.."wtf.."
Then the one jawn looked over at BiL and was like "you treatn' right?"
Then BiL goes, "wtf, treatn' what?"
Then she goes, "treatn' us."
Then he goes, "Yeah i'll treat. If you trickn', then i'm treatn'."
And she goes, "huh?"
BiL says, "If you TRICKN', i'm TREATN'."
And she says, "I don't understand what you're saying. I don't understand your "slang"."

I'm sitting here cracking the fuck up in the backseat like WTF... First off you and your homegirls be listening to rap with SLANG in it all the time. Ya'll be shaking your skank asses at the club 24/7 to RAP WITH SLANG and you mean to tell me you don't understand what he means when he says "if you trickn' then i'm treatn'." Surely honey, he wasn't talking about halloween cause obviously everyone and they moms knows that you and your HOES be TRICKN!. SMH... Second off, you gonna sit there and try to get his brother "jumped" then ask him to "treat" you and your girls? LOL

Matter of fact, people like that should go to urbandictionary.com and look up those slang terms that ya'll don't "understand". LOL SMH..
For all the other people who don't know what "trick" is:
tRicK'(n.) A broad term for describing women who are either teases, hoes, or one of the above pretending to be the other. Calling a woman a trick shows you are not impressed/convinced by their shit.

Term directed more toward females most commonly used for women who play with your head in the sense of acting like they want you one day and hardly noticing you the next or in simpler terms a woman who will suck you up but will fuck you up later on

"Man I don't need her, that bitch was nothin' but a trick"
BASICALLY, A TRICK IS A STRAIGHT-UP HOE!


Then I'm sitting here going through facebook and seeing people talking shit about other people ONLINE but when they seen that person IN PERSON they didn't say shit to em', instead you looking away, walking the fuck away!. WTF is wrong with these bitches thinking they some tough, bad bitches when really, they ain't.

Then BiL asked me what am i cause we was talking about Philly & Jersey ppls. Then i said, I'm a philajersey girl, PANJ. I'm FROM Philly, it's my hometown, i go back about 3-4times a week cause my mom and dad is still there.. But, I RESIDE in JERSEY. No, I ain't no wanna-be Jersey chick, get it right. I LIVE IN JERSEY SO STFU FOR THOSE WHO LIKE TO TALK SHIT.

Onto some other shit.. DAMN Weening a teething baby is some hard shit. Jayden is just a whiney baby when he teethes period, but take away his bottle omg, it's so unbearable.! My poor baby, but he's gotta learn. I don't want my kid growing up with some fawked up ass teeth. I love how he gets when he's teething though, he gets whiney and clingy i can't do anything but i love how he holds onto me and doesn't let go even when he's sleeping. ;]

A CHANGE & MISS LOVATO.

hell0o0 my blog readers lol. anyways, i haven't been on here since what ? last week ? so guess what guys ? i am no longer a red head, i am now a black head. i miss my red hair already though. some people like my black hair, they also said i look evil. yes thank you; i love lookin & feelin evil. & some likes my red hair better, but don't worry guys! the red headed bitch is coming back around OCTOBER FOR HER 19TH lol. yay =]

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DEMI LOVATO

i love this girl, she's gotten so gorgeous & enjoy her music. i'll admit i did not like at first when she played in that disney channel show. something that starts with the bell rings or whatever its called, idk lol. i really heard her voice when she did " camp rock ", & i realized that this girl has got a talent. she's such a beautiful girl & i love her.

i love this song & go buy her album to support her sales; dl or whatever.

lovee jayy.

AIN'T SHIT

THERE AIN'T SHIT HERE

FOR YOU TO CHECK UP ON.

KEEP IT FUCKIN MOVIN.

lovee fuckin' jayy.

AN AUDI

Lmao, GF, hell yeahs i remeber that old school shit haha. I remember they had like this game that involves shooting ducks or something. It has like gun controllers or whatever that comes with that duck game, BUT that was my favorite.

ANYWAYS, I am in Wildwood, NJ right now chillen with my cousins in our beach house. I forgot to bring my camera, so yeahs. Sucks with no pictures to remember.

Okays, this was the main thing that i wanted to get into. Awhile ago, my boyfriend had this car picture as his background desktop in his laptop. He say's its his dream car. BOY ! This car is fine as hell. Soon I learned more about it, its my dream car too. Most of all I just like how sexy it looks.

This photo isn't like the one that my BF has. The one he has looks way better than this one, i just couldn't find it. Okays, this is a 2009 AUDI A5 COUPE. One day, i would love to get my hands on one as my own.

BUT FOR NOW ..

I settle for this. This isn't my own picture as you can see, but this is what im whippin these days. Its the same exact color, dark greyish & same tinted windows that's custom made from their factory. This is a NISSAN ALITIMA SE R SPORTS CAR. The fastest altima out of all the regular altimas =]

lovee jayy.

That 'back in the day' shit

I know ya'll heard of Super Nintendo (SNES), that was that back in the day shit. We'll I just bought myself the old system like last week + Super Mario World (technically, the BF bought it, haha.) I think it's way better than the modern day game systems. I, personally don't play much of games but when it comes to Mario, I'm first on the controllers! (til i die continuously then I throw the control and tell babe i quit, beat that level for me. LOL Well we beat the whole game in less than two days. Now we're bored and waiting for Super Mario World 2-Yoshi's Island to come in. It's actually quite a family bonding game, my B.I.L will come home from work and think he's the ish cause that's how he is and me him and babe will sit there competing with each other to see who can beat the next level first til like 4am.! It just reminds me how conceited and cocky guys can be, talking shit while they're playing. It's actually quite amusing.

Anywhos, Me and the baby are off to Clementon Park today with my baby cousin and Aunt. This Summer didn't turn out so adventurous, I only made two trips to the beach thus far and non to any amusement park. I need to get out... Since Jayden is officially 1years old, it's time for me to get back on my feet.

POOF VAMOOSE

" He who does not feel me is not real to me, therefore he does not exist. So poof vamoose , son of a bitch "

- jay-z

i always loved that quote

lovee jayy.

Something to look forward to

Why do I feel like I'm missing something in my life right now...

My brother finally gets to come home in less than a month from being away in what feels like forever, although it was only 10months. It's crazy how much things change within a year...

Time for me to get back on my feet and get a babysitter for Jay. Sitting home for a whole year feels like I'm not doing anything for myself or for him, even though I loved watching him grow and learn new things. I wish I could make money sitting at home, but I've gotta get a head start on his college savings. I wish my parents had made a savings account for me to go to college.

I need a drink, or two.. unfortunately I only go out and drink once a blue moon. Luckily, my birthday's just right around the corner.! Summer's almost over and it really sucked this year. Hopefully I'll get to squeeze in a trip to the beach and Six Flags for my birthday weekend.